I have not been on this blog for a little while, mainly because life has been kicking my ass. It started in December of last year, as a means to clean my mind of the crap of the day. So my mind would not turn to mush. Will life itself said shit, I do not want you to get a handle on things so I will screw with youn alot more tell you have meltdown. Will after budget windfalls in December to now. Having to find a place to live like really fast. A loved one having to get major heart surgery, several really bad mindgrains, and getting sick real bad all caused by stress, now with me needing to move possibly loosing my car.
I know that alot people have the same problems were life just say fuck you and just want to screw you over. But when it come to my family I say to life fuck you Im not going to give up and will start trying to salve the problems. So what have I been doing. Will for one I got my ass out of the cave of a bedroom and get on this blog of mind and vent and tell what im doing because I know that alot of people while not the same problems are going through alot of crap like me, and just want to find a way just not solve said propblems to get back into the grove of things. Will I cannot help the person but pulling my ass out of the sispool of crap that has built up around me, is what I need to do. Nort just for me but for as healthy family. But I can tell them how me a person deplaited mind, body and soul, got myself back into the grove of things and give life the birdy and say not today. Will I decided to get back on this blog and blog. I also decided to look at me and look into my self in the mirror darkly and when I did. I did not like what I saw. So the first thing I decided to do is to start all over on my research. During the last move I lost and a rain storm destroyed much research and rituals I created even a whole system of magick that took me a year to work on all gone. So I decided with a smile and say that this gives me a chance to look at things with fresh eyes and a new purspective and see were that leaves me with a new look. While trying to fix things im doing new resaerch in my study of the bible and the key of solomon. Im also going back to my diet ever so slowly, slowing down on soda etc. Working on going back to doing my yoga, pray and psalmody. It will take some time but ever so slowly get back to what I was doing spiritually and my spiritual health will be back to a my healthy self nad see a haelthy family.
